I feel completely in the dark and I hate it!
Mom's surgery yesterday was canceled due to some abnormal test results. So now we are playing the wait and see game. We still have no idea what type of lymphoma she has, or how far it has spread in her body. I'm hoping not very far and that she will be able to have the surgery soon.
Not to sound like a crybaby, but this is my blog and I can say what i want right? I am tired, frustrated, mad, scared and did I mention tired? I'm not sleeping well, and the stress is really starting to get to me. I have a full time job, a husband, and 2 kids to take care of on top of taking care of mom. I love my family and am not looking for anyone to take care of me, but I do wonder how I am going to manage by myself.
I'm just taking things one day at a time. Even though I am bogged down with uncertainty I remain positive. We shall overcome!!
On another note I took Maia to her first dentist appointment today and amazingly she loved it. We went to a place called "Kids Dental", it's 3 minutes from the house and everyone was very nice. They took Maia back alone to have her x-rays and teeth cleaning, then they called me back before the dentist examined her. She does have 2 bad cavities, and 4 itty bitty cavities that have to be taken care of. She goes back next week for 2 fillings and we'll go from there. Thank God for dental insurance. It's saving me from breaking the bank! I'm just happy that my girl was excited to be there instead of nervous, and that the dental hygienist made oral hygiene fun for her. Tonight after dinner she had to hurry and get the "sugar bugs" off her teeth. She brushed for 2 minutes, then flossed. Then she ate a Popsicle and had to repeat the whole process again.
Last night KB was able to go to school and audition for the West Texas Choristers, and she made it! She had to sing a few do re mi's and the Happy birthday to herself, but she did great. I know every mother thinks their children are super talented but my KB can really sing. She's no Charlotte Church but she's my rockstar. THe WTC's practice every Thursday and in May have a competition in Lubbock, TX. She's excited and my husband and I are hoping this opportunity will give her the motivation to do well in school and at home. We told her, you fail, you don't go. We had to set ground rules right away. I hope it works, I would hate for her to miss out.
That's it for now. Good night!
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