Monday, January 25, 2010


Even during a storm, there's a moment of calm. I have always found this to be true whether it be literal or metaphoric.

We still have not received any new news on mom, and although its frustrating, I am beginning to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Friday she had the CT scan, today was the PET scan and tomorrow she finally gets to see the cardiologist and he'll hopefully clear her for the biopsies needed to tackle this cancer head on. Wednesday is appointment free and then Thursday Maia has a trip to the dentist, then Friday mom sees the oncologist again. Friday is when we find out where exactly the cancer has made a home in her body. We are obviously hoping that it hasn't spread very far at all. Please continue to keep mom in your prayers as we continue the testing process.

In other news have I mentioned how great my husband is? Well he is. I am so lucky to have such an amazing life partner. Without even asking he made arrangements to stay home to be with us, rather than go on his annual business trip to OKC. It's so important to me that my husband is here for support when we could potentially get bad news on Friday. Just to know he's here to hold my hand is a comfort. I am so thankful for my husband, and the wonderful, caring man that he is.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

Who turned off the lights?

I feel completely in the dark and I hate it!

Mom's surgery yesterday was canceled due to some abnormal test results. So now we are playing the wait and see game. We still have no idea what type of lymphoma she has, or how far it has spread in her body. I'm hoping not very far and that she will be able to have the surgery soon.

Not to sound like a crybaby, but this is my blog and I can say what i want right? I am tired, frustrated, mad, scared and did I mention tired? I'm not sleeping well, and the stress is really starting to get to me. I have a full time job, a husband, and 2 kids to take care of on top of taking care of mom. I love my family and am not looking for anyone to take care of me, but I do wonder how I am going to manage by myself.

I'm just taking things one day at a time. Even though I am bogged down with uncertainty I remain positive. We shall overcome!!

On another note I took Maia to her first dentist appointment today and amazingly she loved it. We went to a place called "Kids Dental", it's 3 minutes from the house and everyone was very nice. They took Maia back alone to have her x-rays and teeth cleaning, then they called me back before the dentist examined her. She does have 2 bad cavities, and 4 itty bitty cavities that have to be taken care of. She goes back next week for 2 fillings and we'll go from there. Thank God for dental insurance. It's saving me from breaking the bank! I'm just happy that my girl was excited to be there instead of nervous, and that the dental hygienist made oral hygiene fun for her. Tonight after dinner she had to hurry and get the "sugar bugs" off her teeth. She brushed for 2 minutes, then flossed. Then she ate a Popsicle and had to repeat the whole process again.

Last night KB was able to go to school and audition for the West Texas Choristers, and she made it! She had to sing a few do re mi's and the Happy birthday to herself, but she did great. I know every mother thinks their children are super talented but my KB can really sing. She's no Charlotte Church but she's my rockstar. THe WTC's practice every Thursday and in May have a competition in Lubbock, TX. She's excited and my husband and I are hoping this opportunity will give her the motivation to do well in school and at home. We told her, you fail, you don't go. We had to set ground rules right away. I hope it works, I would hate for her to miss out.

That's it for now. Good night!

Monday, January 18, 2010

Praying, hoping, and wishing

Now that everyone has been contacted, I guess it's ok to announce that my mother has cancer. She was diagnosed last Tuesday and it has been a whirlwind to say the least. Tuesday she was diagnosed with some form of Lymphoma. Thursday she saw the oncologist and Friday she went to the oncologist again for a bone marrow biopsy that wasn't successful, and then later that day we went to the ENT to schedule a lymph node biopsy. Because the dr wasn't able to get through her bone to extract marrow for a biopsy I'm taking her to an orthopedic surgeon today to have him do it at the hospital. She will have 2 surgeries on Wednesday one for the lymph node and the other for the bone marrow biopsy. Then Friday she goes for a full body cat scan and the following Friday she will have her PET scan. It's going to be a busy next few weeks until we get all of the information and she can start treatment.

I'm praying it's good news and that this aggressive cancer has not traveled to other places besides her neck. I'm also praying that it is Lymphoma and not Non Hodgkins Lymphoma as that is harder to treat. Please keep my family in your prayers, we need all the help we can get right now.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

When it rains...

It pours and right now it's pouring. I know God will not give me anymore than I can handle, but I'm seriously being tested right now. My strength, patience, optimism, and sanity are all being tested. I hope I pass.

Thursday, January 7, 2010